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Who was your first celebrity crush?
Submitted by Glory.

Seems so long ago but I distinctly remember falling IN LOVE with Keanu Reeves in Speed. Maybe it was because I was 13 and hormones were kicking in. Maybe it was Keanu's dark hair, bulging muscles and perfectly fitted white tee. All I know is that for a good long while I kept dreaming of him saving me from one disaster after another, hehe.

 My infatuation quickly wained when I witnessed his horrible southern accent in "The Devil's Advocate"

Tomorrow's the big day. I've done all I can do. "It's gon' be what it's gon' be" as a friend of mine would say. I'll try to write again before the results come out in May. Either way, in early May I should have some news. Good or bad.

Ok, I'm starting to get worried.

 

I am a procrastinator by nature, but ever since I started this job I've really been on top of things...Until recently.

 

Ever since I found out I failed the bar I seem to have lost smy m otivation to work. I still come early but I don't leave as late. Sometimes I sit at my desk for hours not being very productive. Then when I get off work I really, truly intend to go home and study, but for some reason I wind up doing something else. Anything else.

 

I think I'm overwhelmed. Before I found out the bar results I knew I could handle work because it was the only responsibilty I had. But now that I have to work and study, it just seems impossible to do a good job on them both. So I decide to do neither. Bleh.

Here I am in my work outfit. It's not as cute as Tuesday's outfit (sorry people), but it will have to do. Next time I'm all gussied up I'll be sure to share right away. Happy Friday!

Just to update. I'm the only one in the office so I figured this would be a perfect opportunity to blog. But I don't have much to say...

Actually I do have some, but I don't know if I'll have enough time to go into details. (Which, btw, I love if you couldn't already tell). Plus I need to be really productive today, Monday and Tuesday were low on the productivity scale. I'm on intake tomorrow (meaning I pick up new cases) so I need to take care of all my old cases before I can deal with the new ones that come in tomorrow.

So let's see....Something of substance that won't take too long to write about....Eh. Got nothing. Except I really like my outfit today. That is all.

What song gives you the most holiday cheer?
Submitted by Roxy.

 

I don't really dig Christmas music. Most christmases growing up were pretty tense, so that music often puts me in a bad mood. Strangely enough - I was shopping yesterday and Mariah Carey's "All I Want for Christmas is You" came on. I was jammin'. Maybe because it's more of a pop song than a Christmas song. But I'd like to think it's because I'm becoming less of a scrooge...

I was blog surfing and came across this Meme. You are just supposed to indicate songs that you liked, disliked or felt ambivalent about. I however will add commentary, since music is my life:)

 

 

Go to Pop Culture Madness! and select the year you became 18. Paste the list of the top 75 songs. Bold the ones you liked; strike the ones you disliked; and italicize the ones you know but don't exactly like nor dislike. The ones you don't know will stay common text.

 

1. All Star - Smash Mouth {Whatever happened to them?!?}

2. Man! I Feel Like A Woman - Shania Twain {One of those songs I know the words to but am not completely sure why...}

3. I Need To Know - Marc Anthony {*Gasp* This is one of my FAVORITE songs, its on my ipod to this day. Marc Anthony aficionados seem to believe that this song is beneath him, and generally despise his English work. I don't care. This is my jam.}

4. Mambo No. 5 - Lou Bega {"A lil bit of Sandra in the sun, a lil bit of Mary all night long, a lil bit of Jessica here I am, a lil bit of you makes me your man!" <-- Who could NOT love that?!?}

5. Smooth - Santana (with Rob Thomas) {Another gem, and the only song I like by Rob Thomas. I never got into Matchbox 20...}

6. Livin La Vita Loca - Ricky Martin {I only liked this song b/c MTV played it to death. I think "La Copa de La Vida" was a much better song}

7. Canned Heat - Jamiroquai

8. Believe - Cher {Great breakup song, I remember one of macho, womanizing friends singing this song after breaking up with his girlfriend. Hilarious}

9. Summergirls - LFO  {A boyband I knew was destined for failure}

10. My Name Is... - Eminem {Honestly I don't think Eminem is that great and this song was particularly annoying}

11. Crush - Dave Matthews Band

12. Last Kiss - Pearl Jam

13. What's My Age Again? - Blink 182 {Never got into Blink, funny videos though}

14. Changes - 2 Pac {I wish people would let this man rest and stop coming out with new songs from him every other year! Ashanti and TI recently threw together a song over the man's leftover vocals which I haven't even given a chance b/c I'm just so sick of people capitalizing off of his death and legacy.}

15. We Like To Party! - Venga Boys {No comment!}

16. Cup Of Life - Ricky Martin (See #6}

17. (You Drive Me) Crazy - Britney Spears {What can I say, she made damned catchy songs}

18. All The Small Things - Blink 182

19. I Will Remember You - Sarah McLachlan {Ooh, the official graduation song of 1999}

20. Someday - Sugar Ray

21. Genie In a Bottle - Christina Aguilera {I love me some X-tina, I don't care how much of a diva she becomes}

22. Why Don't You Get A Job? - The Offspring {I vaguely remember liking a song by the Offspring during this time but I don't think this was the one...}

23. Miami - Will Smith {I never fell for the idea that Will Smith was a talented rapper, but I did like this song. Especially when the song breaks into salsa and Will and some chick start dancing}

24. Have You Ever? - Brandy {Ooh, Brandy has always been hit or miss with me. This song is pretty much a miss b/c I feel like she's screeching and straining during the whole song. But for some reason I'll still sing along...}

25. Shake Your Bon Bon - Ricky Martin {Pure fluff}

26. Boom, Boom, Boom, Boom! - Venga Boys

27. That Don't Impress Me Much - Shania Twain

28. Back At One - Brian McKnight {I can't stand Brian McKnight. He cheated on his wife and ever since he was on celebrity Jeopardy and missed an answer about Stevie Wonder that even I knew the answer to, I've never forgiven him}

29. ...Baby One More Time - Britney Spears

30. Every Morning - Sugar Ray

31. Slide - Goo Goo Dolls {*Sigh* Another song that makes me want to be in a relationship...}

32. Blue - Eiffel 65

33. No Scrubs - TLC

34. Angel - Sarah McLachlan {Depressing as hell. Even though the lyrics aren't necessarily sad, the instrumental and her vocals make me tear up every time}

35. My Own Worst Enemy - Lit

36. Back That Azz Up - Juvenile {"Drop it like it's hot!" Classic.}

37. Larger Than Life - Backstreet Boys

38. Pretty Fly For A White Guy - the Offspring {Ah, THIS was the song I was referring to, see #22}

39. Out of My Head - Fastball

40. I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden

41. Bills Bills Bills - Destiny's Child {Aw, the original Destiny's Child. Before they became "Beyonce and dem" aka "Beyonce and the Girls" aka "Beyonce and those other Chicks"}

42. I Do (Cherish You) - 98 Degrees (98°)

43. She's All I Ever Had - Ricky Martin

44. Cowboy - Kid Rock

45. Bailamos - Enrique Iglesias {Another song by a latin crooner who apparently makes better music in his native tongue}

46. Got Your Money - Dirty Old Bastard {R.I.P.}

47. Unpretty - TLC {R.I.P. Left-Eye}

48. Back 2 Good - Matchbox 20

49. Hard Knock Life - Jay-Z

50. everybody's free (To Wear Sunscreen) - Baz Luhrmann

51. She Thinks My Tractor's Sexy - Kenny Chesney

52. When You Believe - Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston {A pretty mediocre duet from two amazing singers}

53. Can I Get A... - Jay Z Featuring Amil & JA Rule {I remember dancing to this at prom...}

54. I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin McCain {There was a song by him on the Dawson's Creek soundtrack that I absolutely LOVED but can't remember the name of it...}

55. I Wanna Love You Forever - Jessica Simpson {I think Jessica is a talented singer but she's never produced music that I truly liked...}

56. Steal My Sunshine - Len

57. You'll Be In My Heart - Phil Collins (Tarzan soundtrack)

58. Never There - Cake

59. Anywhere - 112

60. Come On Over - Shania Twain

61. Girl on TV - LFO

62. Vivrant Thing - Nas {Except...this song was by QTIP, not Nas!! Not all rappers look alike, jeez...}

63. If You had My Love - Jennifer Lopez {I love her dancing. Song was decent too}

64. Holla Holla - Ja Rule

65. Angel of Mine - Monica

66. Strong Enough - Cher

67. Nookie - Limp Bizkit {I used to think Fred was hot.}

68. It's All Been Done - Barenaked Ladies

69. Jumper - Third Eye Blind

70. Special - Garbage

71. (God Must Have Spent) A Little More Time On You - *NSYNC

72. American Woman - Lennie Kravitz

73. C'est La Vie - B*Witched

74. Unsent - Alanis Morissette

75. Fly Away - Lenny Kravitz

I've been living with Grams for about 4 months now. It's been fine, we don't spend an incredibly long amount of time with each other, since I'm always at work.

But on the weekends, we get our time in together. And it gets kinda crowded.

When my grandfather was alive he slept and watched tv on the living room couch, (don't ask). Grams slept in her bedroom but then the 2nd bedroom she used as her rec room to use the computer, watch tv, do her crossword puzzles, etc, etc.

But now that I'm staying her I sleep in her "rec room" b/c the couch in the living room sucks. I don't know how gramps slept on it for all those years, (literally, he's been sleeping on that couch since I was born). Now, my grams is the nicest, most generous and just wonderful person in the world. But she is human. So I know she becomes annoyed on the weekends when I completely takeover her room by sleeping in/watching tv all day. I offer to watch tv in another room, but she doesn't accept. She just stays in her bedroom and (I think) stews.

I have to figure out a way to make peace with weekend-Grandma. Weekday-Grandma is just fine, we stay out of each other's way, no fuss, no muss. But on weekends it gets very tense here. It's amazing how living with a person can completely change your relationship with them.

 

 

Oh my. I just ran into this jerkoff guy who I used to be infatuated with. We went to grad school together. He was attractive but I didn't really start paying him attention until I realized we took the same subway home. I'm big on fate. I don't believe in coincidences. He was quiet like me, cute, and we lived on the same subway line. It was kismet!

He was two years ahead of me so I only had a year to drool over him, fortunately. He humored me but I could  tell he wasn't into me the way I was into him. Even so we kept in touch pretty much until my last year of school. We emailed, he told me about the bar and then about how work was going for him. The last time we emailed was last November when I told him I had an interview with his current employer. I didn't get the job but ironically I ended up getting a job working in the same building he works. Fate - 2pts, Chance - 0. Or so I thought.

So this past May I'm riding the train and guess who I see? *Yay* With a woman who is sitting so close to him they must be in a relationship. *Boo* But I don't care, I was just excited to see an old acquaintance/friend. Hell, I get excited when I see the same person on the train 3 days in a row! So I smile, look, and wait for recognition. Some acknowledgement that we occassionally took the train home together, that we e-mailed each other even after he graduated, that he let me borrow his text books and that we 'd exchanged phone numbers and promised to keep in touch.

So I waited. And waited. After a couple of minutes he looks up from his girlfriend, our eyes meet - his eyes go back to her. I'll skip over all the embarrasment, hurt and rejection I felt. I just wondered, from a practical standpoint, how he could ignore me like that when he knows we're in the same profession AND work in the same field within that profession. Since that day I've seen him twice - once at a mixer event for young professionals (where he was with his girlfriend and ignored me AGAIN), and this morning, when I was coming into work. I wasn't as early as I usually am so maybe that's why this is the first time I've seen him since I started this job. In any case we see eachother, I quickly look away and continue about my business. He's a couple of steps ahead of me and as I get in the elevator I see him out the corner of my eye. He turns back and looks. I don't know who/what he was looking at - but I don't care.

O.k. I'm lying. Of course I care! I want my running late this morning to have been for a reason! I want him to be sorry and ashamed and find my number to call and apologize for being such a monster. And while we're at it, it wouldn't hurt for him to realize how in love with me he is, dump his girlfriend and beg for me to give him a chance.

Ok. I'll strike that last wish. But I think my remaining requests are reasonable...

Have you ever Googled your own name? How did you feel about the results?
Submitted by elen.

I Google my name every couple of months. You could pretty much find out everything that's on my resume since my name is so unique (a Susan or a Jan I am not). Part of me loves Google for this. I secretly hope that past frenemies will Google me and see how wonderful and successful I've become (minus the whole failing the bar thing).

But the other part of me does feel uncomfortable that I'm so exposed. Hopefully my name is so unique that people will have forgotten how to spell it :p